#reblogs appreciated (no pressure)

[dumbponyboykinnie]

It's the truth. Dally rode the ponies honestly and did his best to win. It was the only thing Dally did honestly.

[hannahmationstudios]

Doodledump! A series of very rough concept doodles I did a while back for a Monster AU of Logan from My Time At Sandrock. What if the monster hunter was actually born a monster himself due to a genetic mutation?

[pansyboybloom]

I need people to realize that binge eating disorders aren’t just ‘overeating’. this is a disability, this is a mental illness, it is a disorder, not a moral failing and people, esp fat people, with it are not pathetic or weak willed or gluttonous or disgusting. We’re people, and deserve to be treated as such.

Support your friends who binge. Don’t make assumptions. Do research and watch out for fatphobia and diet culture centered rhetoric. Respect us, regardless on how or why or when we do or do not recover. Show us love, because god knows very few people do

[guzhufuren]

a poll for people who watch asian dramas and check general fandom related tags (often, sometimes or once in a while)

NOT TAGS OF SPECIFIC DRAMAS

*no options for those who don’t watch asian dramas, or watch but don’t ever go into this kind of fandom tumblr tags, please skip voting. if you want to see results queue the poll for a week from now

details in tags of reblogs or replies appreciated

[s4tvrnsays]

Maribug in my au!!!!

Shes a silly billy and i love her (๑>◡<๑) i plan on eventually doing a full illustration for her redesign + chat’s buttttt that might be wayyyy ahead from now

[eosofspades]

quick n easy list of gentle coping mechanisms for bad mental health days / neurodivergent understimulation episodes!! some are more applicable to one or the other but when i'm feeling particularly like a tiger in a too-small enclosure i find doing at least a couple of these things helps me so much

drink water. basic, but annoyingly effective

eat a snack. same as above

stretch! even just some laying down stretches like pulling on your arms and knees (in fact, here's a great tiktok series for "depression stretches" and workouts/physical stimulation you can do laying down/without much movement)

music/podcasts/video essays. your favorite playlist you haven't listened to in a while, a podcast you like/have been meaning to start (i listen to podcasts while i'm drawing!)

draw/color! if you don't wanna draw, a coloring book is always fun. i actually prefer kids' ones.

read a book. i prefer physical books bc i know i'll get sucked back into the social media scrolling for hours if i try to read on my phone. i also recommend a nice tea/hot chocolate/juice with this one.

video games. this can be anything from minecraft to destiny 2, but i usually never give myself time for these, even when i have it (stuck in that phone scrolling). a more action-packed game for mental understimulation, maybe a more mellow one for a bad depression episode.

shower. i am fully aware this tends to take a lot of spoons but even just sitting under running water ALWAYS makes me feel better when i can manage it. it also helps me with adhd overstimulation!

clean/organize. this sounds counterintuitive but i actually do enjoy organizing stuff for understimulation, and cleaner workspaces help with the depression. even if it's something as simple as "put all the pencils on the desk back into the pencil cup."

puzzles/brain games. this one is almost exclusively for mental understimulation but once i get going it makes my depression SO MUCH BETTER, TOO. my niche is getting myself some algebra sheets but this can be anything from math to jigsaws to crosswords to word searches!! some kind of problem solving that engages your brain and requires focus. this one is my favorite because i find it really grounding.

playing an instrument. this is in the same vein as the last one! again, my personal niche is the piano, but this could be any sort of thing. in fact this could even be substituted for some kind of alt hobby all together, like knitting or crocheting or something! again, mostly for understimulation, but gives me the serotonin boost to get through the depression stuff as well.

this is all i have for my list, but i'd love for anyone to reblog and add their own stuff!!

[rayclubs]

Posting my best works because I'm opening commissions starting June 1st. Portraits like these are done in digital, take 10-15 hours on average, and will be around $50 depending on complexity. The only way I can get paid is through Pаypаl.

I'd appreciate it if you reblogged even if you have no interest in commissioning me. I'm going to be applying to university this year and I'm trying to save up some extra money.

Drawing queer people and characters during Pride Month gets a 10% discount and a kiss on the forehead from me personally. I'll be making another post sometime in June with all the other work I do, hope y'all won't mind your dash being a little cluttered. Cheers!

[meownotgood]

it felt amazing to finally see that green checkmark on ao3, to finally move the full fic to my finished folders on docs, to finally say with my whole chest that it's really completed...

I'm proud of myself and what I managed to make, I'd been working on this fic for over a year, and I felt a lot of doubts while writing. I didn't expect to write so much. I often thought I was saying too much, or the fic wasn't good enough. when I reread it, I realized it wasn't perfect, but it doesn't have to be. I wrote something that was so unabashedly me, and I'm so grateful for that feeling. I'm so happy that I can write what I enjoy, that I can be myself while doing what I have always loved the most. I learned and progressed, and I can feel only excitement for whatever I write next!!

thank you for your patience, and if you end up reading, thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart 💞

I took off work tomorrow to celebrate lol (actually because I'm still sick but we're calling it a celebration). I don't know what to say next so here's some cute pictures of aki. three cheers for fic completion 🎉🎉🎉

[franky-y]

another painting

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[qsmp-weekly-quests]

Thank you to @rainbowchaox, @theroseyhues and all the 5 anons that suggested a name! I appreciate ya'll :D

Also to the one anon I couldn't include, sorry but I simply can't turn into an egg(not now at least)

[whumpypepsigal]

aaaaaand that’s a wrap for ✨whumpgifathon 2024✨

THANK YOU @aceofwhump for creating and hosting this great event 🥰. the prompts were amazing. i had so much fun!

[v0ltpr1m3]

Alright, number crunching time. And be honest.

[tocautiouslygo]

Some of the ways narcissistic personality disorder manifests for me day-to-day:

(Some of these may have overlap with other mental illnesses and autism! I can't fully separate out all the different things that are going on in my brain)

Being reluctant to let anyone help me because I don't think they'll do the thing as well as I could

Donating to mutual aid so I can feel good about myself for helping people

Daydreaming about exactly how I'd go about helping everyone if I had a lot of money (and about how the people who would be helped would want to thank their mysterious benefactor but I'd keep my identity a secret because I would be doing this because it's the right thing not for the attention and...)

Expecting to succeed at things the first time, and feeling ashamed when I don't

Feeling ashamed of feeling ashamed

Feeling ashamed of feeling ashamed of feeling ashamed

Still ruminating on being ghosted, over a year after it happened, because I can’t accept that I’m not fully in control of how other people treat me

Seeking out terrible discourse takes when I'm feeling bad about myself, so I can reassure myself that at least I'm better than those people

Feeling baffled when people tell/show me they think of me when I'm not around

Not giving up on things I want to succeed at because I'm convinced I'm so close to getting there

Feeling jealous whenever anyone pays attention to anything that isn't me, or needs to do something (including sleeping or eating) instead of talking to me

Feeling guilty for being jealous and trying to suppress the feeling. Succeeding to the point where I didn't realise I felt jealousy at all until I went looking for it

Working on my mental health so I can tell the people in my life about my progress

Planning out how conversations are going to go in my head and feeling rejected if something different happens, even if it's objectively fine

Frequently seeking reassurance that my friends still like me

Feeling bad if I don't get attention but feeling scared of being "found out" as inadequate in some way if I do, especially if the attention of a large group is on me

Writing awareness posts in the hopes it'll get me notifications/positive comments

Some of the ways it used to manifest for me [under the cut for mentions of self harm and problematic stuff on my part]:

Digging my nails into my skin and insulting myself as punishment for failure

If there was something I wanted to talk about but was scared to bring up, attempting to manipulate the conversation so the other person would bring it up

Feeling superior to others because (among many other things) I: used proper grammar, was Not Like Other Girls™, had niche interests

Holding myself at a distance in friendships/relationships because I was too scared of fucking things up

Being self deprecating so people would contradict me [I might still do this? I'm not sure]

[raynecloud06]

Hi. Idk how to start this, so let's just get right to the chase.

I had the silly little idea to make an alt blog here on Tumblr, that is solely dedicated to my silly little project SEKAI AU ideas for based on many different cards. Not full fledged storylines or anything of the sort, just some basic ideas.

I have a few reasons for this; A) I enjoy making au ideas, but I cannot for the life of me actually do anything substantial with them, B) I've shared, like, two au ideas here on my main blog before and a few people seemed to like those, and C) I want to take requests on this blog, which would give me the chance to branch out to au ideas and aus involving ships (mostly romantic, but also platonic) that I wouldn't have otherwise.

(Also, these ideas will all be free to use so long as you credit and/or tag me. And while I do have some personal "don't"regarding requests, I believe they're pretty small and outside of them, you can go hog wild.)

Still gotta actually get all the rules and stuff a bit more finalized before I can actually make the blog and junk, but I decided to do a poll first to see if people would even be interested in something like that. So...

(It's totally fine if the answer is no btw. If I get more no's than yes's, then I'll just keep posting any au ideas i really love on here occasionally. This is just to see if people would be interested in at least following a blog like that.)

(Also, I don't think I shared a lot of details regarding this, so if you have any questions you want to ask at any point, please do, and I'll answer them to the best of my ability!)

Have a wonderhoy day :D

[nerdacious]

I screwed myself over by posting my fic all at once instead of one chapter at a time. So here’s my shameless self promotion!

We’ve got:

What if Harry didn’t recruit Kim? (Post game, so spoilers)

Pining Kim is a mental wreck

Kim’s notebook (What’s in there?!)

Precinct 57 (featuring 2/3 of the Aces and Alice)

Imaginary Harry being a menace

La Revacholiere works in mysterious ways and is very tired

How Kim Got His Groove Back

“Martin Martinaise” makes you feel special

Some angst with a side of porn

Kim/Harry in a Kim/Smoker suit and also a secret third thing???

The sequel is complete!

You can find it here: Call Me By His Name